[He faces her properly now, scowling just as angrily back at her.]

You don't get it, do you? That attempt was the last bit of my principles I've got left here! The rest of the time I'm going against everything I stand for! I'm not just betraying every single person around me, I'm betraying my family! I'm betraying myself! Hell, in a way I'm even betraying Beato!

[And then, realising someone might hear him if he keeps yelling, he lowers his voice. Even as he speaks more quietly, though, the rage is still very much there.]

So come on, tell me I'm a fucking idiot. Or that I need to get off my high horse and just do what has to be done.

I. Don't. Care.